Money does. It is the root of all evil. I hate money, or rather the lack there of. I'm tired of struggling every single day. I live modestly. Every single time I think I am doing okay, as in pay all my bills and to be able to buy groceries, WHAM!, something happens to upset my apple cart. It makes me hate my life. It makes me want to give up and walk away from my responsibilities (except my son, I can't give him up). I look at what I can do to cut back. I don't have enough to do that. Days like today really make me wish my Mom was here. I still need her. I keep finding out that I am the only one I can rely on and I kinda suck at that. Between my hours getting cut, no raise in over 5 years, child support being cut back (erroneously I believe - am working on that), sky high gas prices, everything in the sun going up, I just can't win.
Yes, I am whining. Get over it. I am entitled at times. I am going to have to either get a roommate or a part time job. I can't win with either. If I get a roommate, I have no real privacy. If I work a part time job, I won't have the time I like for my son. It will make studying for my classes a lot more difficult as well. Yes, I know there are others that have a lot less than I do, but this is my life. My life is very hard for me right now. I hope my woes are just temporary. Until next time...
